my life in their hands

Mon, 08 Dec 2008 02:02:51 GMT

I haven't posted in forever.
my oh my time sure flys.
So much has happened in these months.

i was in a car accident a while ago. like a month ago or something. I don't really remember. But my mom's car is totaled. It's sitting in the driveway gathering dust with it's poor hood that looks like an accordion. The accident was not my fault hough. We got the police report. What happened is that on the 118 freeway I was in the fast lane and there was stop and go traffic. a car in front of me swerved out of the way and I had plenty of time to stop.. so I did. And I was stopped fora least a second thinking tomyself,"Thank God. I evaded an accident" Then some bitch comes up and rear-ended me.Now, since my car weighs about 1.2 pounds it was shoved violently into the truck in front of me. This chick hit me going fucking 60 mph!
And worse news is that my parents insurance expired LITERALLY the DAY before the crash. And the insurance had no reason to cancel the insurance on that one car to begin with. Whatever. Since it wasn't my fault the insurance doesn't matter. It would have mattered if I hit someone else though. Anyways... now I dont have a car and it sucks BALLS!

WHATEVER. Oh yeah! and because of my bruised ribs, re-injured back and practically broken toe, I was bed-ridden the next day, when I had a huge test I needed to do AND a quiz I can't make up. And the day of the accident(when I was in the hospital) I had 2 quizzes my teachers also wont let me makeup! what the hell!
Now my grades are suffering. LAME!
Well.. I'm going to go lie down and rest.

I miss you guys!

<3

OUR 2 YEAR!!!!!

Tue, 02 Sep 2008 21:19:54 GMT

It's now the 3rd week of school and I'm wanting to do well in my classes so much! I am really trying! but i could do so much more! I want A's! But I know that will be very difficult. oh well... but I really do!

anyways.
nick and my 2 year was this last Sunday!
We celebrated it this last Saturday though.
He did the most amazing thing!

Okay so i will start off saying that I took him to Venice Beach and I made him a really cute picnic and we got henna tats. Mine of a dragon and a peace sign and he got this really cool skull.

Anywho... He made me a candle-lit dinner which started during the sunset and it consisted of hand cooked salmon, shrimp cocktail and a spinach salad in raspberry vinaigrette.
It was so cute because he acted as the waiter, the busboy and the chef!
And the next door neighbor was having a party and we had out own built-in music!
Plus he forgot my favorite pie and felt really bad but he was so cute!

*sigh*

he's so perfect.
And his mom made us these wine glasses and put our nicnames of strawberry and apple on the side. It was Nick's idea but his mom is the artist.

Anyways... he's just the cutest.
*sigh*

now I'moff to studying!

call/text/e-mail

Mon, 12 May 2008 06:41:01 GMT

okay.
I'm so ready to move on with my life.
I'm sick and SO tired of high school and all the stupid arguments that go along with it.
yet next year I'm definitely going to stop by Santa Susana to visit my love, but College is looking SO good right about now.
Classes I know I can do well in.
And new people, plus a few others that I know I will still be friends with.
I kinda wish everyone I"ve ever met would still keep in contact with me, because I hate losing friends.
But College looks so amazing! And free.
I just hope I'll get my grades well for this semester.
I'm only worried about Econ.
I'm so mad I got mr. Long. He's such a bastard. And I've lost so much respect for that thing.

Anyways.. I'm glad at the person I am. For the most part.
I wish I was in a more personal relationship with my Lord. I know I'd be so much happier.
and i wouldn't have done everything I have.
Like I dont thinkI want to go to Rocky Horror anymore.

So...
Im tired.
night.

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 06:42:30 GMT

a lot on my mind.

Wed, 21 Nov 2007 09:43:27 GMT

meep

Sun, 04 Nov 2007 06:35:13 GMT

You Should Learn French

C'est super! You appreciate the finer things in life... wine, art, cheese, love affairs.
You are definitely a Parisian at heart. You just need your tongue to catch up...

What Language Should You Learn?

SOME SCARY CHRISTIAN STUFF

Sun, 21 Oct 2007 07:43:08 GMT

A LETTER FROM HELL

close your eyes and I will take you to eternity

Sun, 23 Sep 2007 08:02:11 GMT

Wow. (enough said)

I have work tomorrow, but if anyone wants to hang out tomorrow before 4:30 then sweet! I'm there!

*giggles* I am so grossing you guys out with all my lovie dovie crap, so well, hell, I'll do it anyways!
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!

Good night yall, and for those of you going to RHPS, hope you're having fun!

Sat, 08 Sep 2007 23:04:05 GMT

~Got a haircut~

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 02:11:25 GMT

She couldn't take one more day
Home was more her prison now
Independence called out
She had to get it

A fight was all she needed
To give her reason
She slammed the door with no goodbye
And knew that it was time

Now she's driving too fast
She didn't care to glance behind
And through her tears she laughed
It's time to kiss the past goodbye

I'm finally on my own
Don't try to tell me no
There's so much more for me
Just watch what I will be

She walked away
Couldn't say why she was leaving
She walked away
She left all she had believed in
She walked away

Not a day goes by
For the one she's left behind
They're always asking why
And thoughts of her consume their mind

God please let her know
The love we tried to show
We'd promise anything
If you'd just bring her home

Tell her we love her
Tell her she's wanted
One more thing God
Tell her please come home
Please come home

The choice is yours alone now
Tell me how this story ends

Tue, 21 Aug 2007 00:28:06 GMT

10 days

Thu, 16 Aug 2007 23:52:25 GMT

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 16:42:35 GMT

"I never understood why people concider youth a time of ffreedom and joy. It's probably because they have forgotten their own." ~Margaret Atwood, Canadian novelist of note

"Normal is just a cycle on the washing machine." ~Whoopi

"Dumb is just not knowing. Ditzy is having the courage to ask!"

"If you don't have any goals, you can't fail," ~Rachel Aguirre, pragmatic prose writer.

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 04:56:29 GMT

Mon, 23 Jul 2007 04:55:28 GMT

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 02:41:01 GMT

hello

meep.

goodbye

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 05:09:44 GMT

I'm so worried about my friends

MAybe my hopes wont be crushed by my parents his year

Sun, 08 Jul 2007 17:33:30 GMT

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Sun, 01 Jul 2007 08:08:14 GMT

It's times like these I wish i could die.
Is it possible to love life and hate it at the same time?

I was so happy all these months I haven't cried myself to sleep over her.
I don't give a rat's ass how many fucking months she carried me. It doesn't make up for the years of pain she puts me through.

Here comes another night I will block out for the most part.

I really will never be good enough for her.
It's as if no matter what I do.. there's always SOMETHING.

Well... here's to our 10 months.....
And I saw him for MAYBE 3 minutes.

I went to the Reagal with my family and saw Even Almighty.
not bad.
not bad at all.

Infact... today started out very well.
then turned to shit.

Another thought of suicide, and turned away.
I just hope next time I'll turn it away again.
I just don't want there to be a next time of this...

the site that is like in my mind...(some)

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 01:55:57 GMT

http://www.penandlolly.com/

goodmorning

Mon, 25 Jun 2007 19:49:16 GMT

I'm in a good mood today!

*takes a breath of fresh air*
Ahhhh, It is a very nice day out today.

Why am I in a good mood, you ask?
Because:
WHY NOT?

Man, I need to have a summer party. I just have a lack of money.

I'm soon to be signed up for summer school. To take Keyboarding.
And then maybe a job
but jobs still suck

House is PHANTASMAGORICAL

to add on what's in my mind:

I'll never be good enough
There's a method to my maddness

Sat, 23 Jun 2007 05:57:53 GMT

*Sigh*

I hope I'm good enough.
I'm new...

I feel... so...

..

not needed. Not by everyone. Just by few.

Ok. Tomorrow. I'm getting as many people as I can to do something.
I'm not sure what

k bye

Wed, 20 Jun 2007 22:03:39 GMT

...

I'm sorry.

For everything.

wow. I cracked up when I someone sent this to me

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 04:27:10 GMT

Thu, 31 May 2007 05:11:38 GMT

What can I say?
Swedes are HOTT.